Thursday, April 2, 2015

Lots O' Feelings. Letter from March 30, 2015

I'm so happy to hear that Frank is still coming to church! And that Catherine is taking the lessons! I guess I hadn't caught that she was meeting with the Sisters. YEAH! That is SO great! Way to be awesome member missionaries! Is she being taught in our home? :)

Easter Sunday... Nope, don't have any plans. It'll be a typical Conference Sunday for us. I haven't really had any special holidays since coming on my mission. Last Easter a ward member in Kuna gave us Easter baskets! That was the coolest thing ever! People are nice. :) But yeah, not sure what'll happen this year.

The church has put out the new Easter video at helives.mormon.org. We've been trying to share the video with everyone that we come in contact with. Ohhh, if only we had ipads! Haha! But the assistants to the president gave every companionship a DVD with the video on it (including the past Easter and Christmas videos) so that's been helpful. During Christmas, when I was serving in Parma, not a lot of people had computers/internet so it was hard to get anyone to see the video. So this will be helpful. The problem with La Grande is that a majority of the population is old and they don't know how to work their DVD players... hahahaha! The struggle is real. But we've gotten new pass-along cards that we can hand out to people, so we've been able to have a lot of door conversation with people about Jesus Christ. That's always awesome.

If you could post the new Easter Mormon Message on my Facebook page, that would be great!

Reid and Chase have both written me about their grades. They're so cute. haha! Reid told me that he needs to put forth some more effort and Chase mentioned that he's really striving for a 4.0. Good for them. They're both doing great things. :) #proudsister

No one's dressed up in special Easter dresses here... But maybe Easter dresses are kinda like baptism dresses. We just never caught wind of that trend! hahaha! (I'm still a little upset that I never got a white dress when I turned 8. But whatev's. I ain't mad.)

I'm happy to hear about the change in the boys- that they now want to serve missions and want to attend church colleges. :) They're good boys. Both BYU Provo and Idaho are great choices. I don't know where I'll be. But either way, they'll both be close by. :) Is Reid still planning on going to school for a semester before his mission? That might be good for him.

I really have no idea what I want to do for school... Everyone said that a mission was supposed to help you narrow down your ideas! WRONG! haha! I'm all in the air now. I really just want a degree in ANYTHING. I'm contemplating Music Ed, Elementary Ed, Vocal Performance, a general music degree, or marketing... Yeah. No idea. But if I'm transferring schools, I'll need to get it figured out sooner than later. And I'm 2 years into school, so I'm running out of wiggle room.

Oh man... It's so weird to think that I've been out for 14 months...
When members hear my companion and I say how long we've been out they always respond with, "Wow! You're on the downhill slope! Are you excited?! What are you going to do when you get home?" And Sister Broadhead and I just look at each other with the same look in our eyes.... We still feel like greenies. I don't think that feeling ever goes away. I still have waves of inadequacy. The whole idea that the Lord trusts ME with his children is a huge weight on my shoulders. But it doesn't drag me down- it keeps pushing me forward! I am assisting to bring souls to Christ! What a wonderful work!

What have I learned that I wish I would have known at the beginning of my mission? Do I have advice for my brothers? Well... to answer both questions... I've learned SO much and I've been compiling a list of the lesson that I've learned. I call it, "What I Want My Brothers To Know". And they'll just have to wait to hear the list until I get home. :) It's still in the works. But I'm making it especially for when they go on their missions. Hopefully it will help them. (Cause, honestly, I wish I had some tips and tricks from someone who'd served before me... it's hard to be the first one serve from your family.)

I remember when I first came out on my mission... it was the first night in the MTC and I remember laying on my bed, staring at the top bunk, and thinking to myself, "What did I just get myself into...?" I couldn't go home! This wasn't EFY! AH! I was terrified. Day 1... and we were TEACHING people! Didn't they know that I wasn't qualified to do this?! haha! And then I got out into the field and I was DOUBLY terrified because now these were REAL people with REAL problems! Oh gosh. I can just feel the anxiety coming back. haha!

But I guess the biggest thing that I've learned on my mission is that the promise that the Lord gives in Doctrine and Covenants 84:85 is a REAL promise:
85 Neither take ye thought beforehand what ye shall say; but treasure up in your minds continually the words of life, and it shall be given you in the very hour that portion that shall be meted unto every man.
We don't have the experience or the words to help these people. We don't even know what they need to hear or feel most of the time. But the Lord knows. And He uses us as instruments in answering peoples unspoken prayers. There have been moments on my mission when I've felt the Lord guiding my companion and I in our lessons. We've been given the words to say in the moment we needed them. As we study (treasuring up in our minds...the words of life), the spirit gives us knowledge that is packed away for the moment that we need to share it with someone (it shall be given you).

This was a good week full of lessons, dropped investigators, dropped less actives, good conversations about the gospel with people on the street, exchanges to Parma, road trips, and investigators coming to church. The work is being hastened!

The general women's meeting was this week. I loved it. I loved their emphasis on the family! That's the major challenge that we face when talking to people about the gospel... They don't have the family as a top priority. But hopefully people will turn around. :) And general conference is this weekend- which I'm SO looking forward to! As always :)

Hope everything is well back at home! Sorry this email was so rushed... I hope that I was able to answer the questions okay. :) Love you all!

Sister Gubler